Cheeryl Tan (a.k.a. JoBiChI~sAn ^^)
Currently 16. And VERY screwed up.
Libra
October 17th xD
Year of the Goat
Blood type B+ (tasty, because blood all around is...)
(Did I mention that I play with blood?)
Super-sensitive to the sun (vampire mah~)(never want to see the sun again...)
Die hard anime and manga fan! And dying for it...
Future Manga Artist.. I'll tell my stories to the world!
Obsession with... MUSHROOMS... <3
Choir!
Love science... All branches of it... But....
Love to sing
Love writing poems n songs
Love to draw
Loves the power of 'cheaminology' >_< Love writing LoOoOoOoOonnnggggg compos...
Love... A beautiful reality! <3
Where is the love?
Morbid and emo-ing... Again.
Wonders about Life
Counsellor! But can't even help myself...
Dreams of making own universes... While attempting to withdraw into my own...
Contorted in millions of philosophies
Japanese bands ROCK!

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January 2007
February 2007
March 2007
April 2007
May 2007
June 2007
July 2007
August 2007
September 2007
October 2007
November 2007
March 2008
April 2008
May 2008
June 2008

Bored. Tired. Sleepy.

All negative.

For once, I wish I had a better state of mind... For once, I wish my mind was back at ease...

No, it never was.

Stress, stress, and more stress... I haven't displayed any symptom of it, apart from my water tap being alot easier to turn on recently... And I guess alot more. I'm breaking up! Finally!
Wow I'm actually happy?

Yeah I'm really stressed...

I'm breaking up...

Into lil' pieces... Maybe no one will find me...

So it goes. Was at the multi-purpose room listening to the choir singing. Wow... Love that Riversong... Gambatte, choir! But the guys were fumbling off both riversong and the prayer... funny why. Then I saw someone walk past who definitely destroyed my day. To think I'd avoided him all this while even in class and yet... If he'd looked in I'd glare right back... Mood-spoiler. Big loser. Bastard. Never wanna see that face again as long as I live. Too bad, we're in the same class. Got another half a year to live with it...

And after going for that choir practice, I guess I realised how badly I wanted to go back to choir, as well as... oh never mind. All I need to see is that smile, hear that familiar chuckle... I guess that's all I need. All I need to know.

I can't ask of so much from anyone. Things just can't be forced.

"When a relationship falls from the sky, you should hold out your your hands to catch it, or if it falls to the ground it will shatter..." (the beginning)

The last episode was yesterday (yes bad translations from chinese to english. Hey, my chinese FAIL de leh!) I couldn't help but agree. Once you miss it, the opportunity will disappear and all would be lost. No matter how hard you try...

As for me, all this while my hands were tied behind my back. Tied with crushing wires, cutting into my skin, blood gushing out of the wounds... Each time I manage to break free from the wires, the fallen star cannot be caught anymore... And I sadly pick up the pieces. Each time the wires become stronger and bind even more tightly than ever to my poor arms... There seems to be no lack of blood. Each time I still try, at least to pick up the pieces. But all fails...

My blood's running out. I cannot bleed anymore than I have. The wires cut deep into my flesh, almost revealing bone and muscle. I cannot bear the pain. But I don't see anything up in the sky. I think I'll just sit here and bleed... Maybe one day the death of heart will claim my tortured soul...