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Ah.
Hi.
Thanks for clicking the link that led you to this blog... Now it is whether you can bear to read its contents. This blog has been labelled 'cheam' by most people whom I know (therefore highlighting their incompetency in the English language... hehehehehe xD no I'm just joking, don't pelt me with rotten veggies.. *splat!*)
Each entry in this blog are like pieces of my disillusioned self... Good luck to the one who dares brave into uncharted territory... the chasms of my mind.
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"Sono omoi ga kanawanakutatte suki na hito ni suki tte tsutaeru sore wa kono sekai de ichiban suteki na koto sa..."

I feel so freeeeeeeee....

Today in choir, I actually felt happy. For the first time in so many years, I smiled. A proper, genuine smile. Not a forced one, nor a social propiety. It was really a smile I just couldn't wipe off my face. And of course lots of laughing. Hey. This is weird... Something is so wrong with me.

For some time now I'd always thought our choir lacked the spirit somewhats, and I didn't know how to bring it out in our choir. You see, choir's about telling a story (yeah, Ms Yee always says tt) But ever since the day I joined choir, my purpose was this: I wanted to express myself, I wanted to release myself of emotion through the songs...

But it wasn't a very smooth ride. Sec 2 woes, SL woes, even till now... And today, my petals have fallen. Well, wrong analogy... I think. But 'petals fallen' meaning my burden has been lifted. Erm. Words can't describe my feelings now. It's like my purpose in joining the choir has finally reached the rest. Oh, I was moved to tears. Except I didn't really cry, but I was real happy.

I don't know what's wrong with me! *super huge grin*

But at least, at least finally my wish has come true. I hope BBSS choir will sing with more life in the future... Go on choir! Thanks for making my life so much better! If not for you guys... I doubt I could've lived through the 4 years! Lol I sound like I'm going 2 die or smth...

But really. The only times I really smiled (of coz with my bestie too!) were with choir. It was with choir me n my buds all played fools of ourselves and had fun. And made fun of each other. And cried together sometimes... But I enjoyed it throughly coz I never had such good friends in primary school. And my sec sch buds... Are simply the best!

I can't really bear to think about it. After 4 years, and you're asking me to leave?

I didn't really want to go to BBSS initially. Hated the school, hated myself for being so lousy... But now? I feel so sad sometimes, looking at our school building... Thinking about the happy and the sad... So many memories... So much time spent in the building I've known as my second home...

But it's not really a very good home either, for alot of us...

So. What is my purpose in this school? What can I do for my fellow BBSSians?
I don't know. And recently, I've noticed one of my friends caught in a mess. I don't know to what extent, but he looks very sad. Although usually you see him smiling away with his 'qian da' face, actually I find his form a little disconcerting... I don't really know what he's thinking, and I don't know whether he'll accept my help.. Coz I really want him to be able to fulfil his dream. He should not stay in an environment that will impede his progress...

But can I help him?

I don't know. He might just read this and avoid me like crazy. Who knows?
But if he does, I wanna shout it here. I wanted to talk to him initially but I don't dare to. And although in the beginning I kinda mistook my feelings toward him for romance, but I sorted it out. And I understand now =) He kinds of give me the feeling that he's like a long-lost brother, and I really really really am not joking or anything. Really! i don't really understand why I get so concerned over him either...
I hope he knows who he is... lols? I hope.
Will you let me help you?
Because I care...

My WoRlD rEvOlVeS rOuNd and RoUnD mY LiFe sTorY... My DreAmS and HoPeS, mY reNeWeD sTreNgtH... And My NEW LoVe!

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