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Ah.
Hi.
Thanks for clicking the link that led you to this blog... Now it is whether you can bear to read its contents. This blog has been labelled 'cheam' by most people whom I know (therefore highlighting their incompetency in the English language... hehehehehe xD no I'm just joking, don't pelt me with rotten veggies.. *splat!*)
Each entry in this blog are like pieces of my disillusioned self... Good luck to the one who dares brave into uncharted territory... the chasms of my mind.
I know you don't like what you see. Yes... I hear your displeasure already... See the red button on the top right hand corner? Yes that. The one with the little 'x'... Click that...

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"Sono omoi ga kanawanakutatte suki na hito ni suki tte tsutaeru sore wa kono sekai de ichiban suteki na koto sa..."

It's been soooooooooo long since I last posted something on my blog... ahhhh!!!!

So many changes.

So many problems.

Sigh.

Sigh.

Sigh...

It's raining again. It's always raining or thundering. The same goes for my life. Let's pretend my existence is a little planet on its own... The planet's going through the same stages as of Earth in its very early years, millions of years ago... Volcanic eruptions, thunderstorms, not a hint of life. Lightning flashes, murky skies... Undesirable, isnt it?
Though I really hope this little planet will someday bloom into life... But that day, is far far away, just like how it took millenia to create the world we live in...

Sigh.

The common test alone and some other things have already gotten me emotionally and physically drained... And to think, its just a common test, and I'm on the verge of losing the will to live. And I get up and smack myself... Cheeryl! How can you crumble under this kind of pressure? How will you survive the O's at this rate?

Sigh.

I don't understand. Maybe I'm entering 'the midnight phase' again. It's gonna be a heck of a ride which I won't remember even 30% of the details. Even after the previous phase, I still can't really recall the pieces. Only mementos from that time is a cross shaped scar on my left arm and a shattered cup... And even I don't understand fully why I did it.

It's March now. Holidays coming, SYF to prepare for, more tests to study for, more hurdles to cross. Unlikely is my holidays going to be any sort of holiday, unless you count maybe short trips to J.B. or outings to the beach or the park... Which isnt too bad either.

Why am I writing all this? I don't know.

But definitely there is a more pressing problem at hand.. Yes, one friend of mine knows. The only way I can describe the problem is in this way. There's a seed I've planted. It grows, and when it's about to bloom, I set it alight.. But yet, I don't know if the flower is even there. The burning of an invisible flower... Sad.

So do I raise the torch or do I douse the flames?
That's my pressing dilemna...

I really don't know...

My WoRlD rEvOlVeS rOuNd and RoUnD mY LiFe sTorY... My DreAmS and HoPeS, mY reNeWeD sTreNgtH... And My NEW LoVe!

Jobichi~san whacked you at 5:50:00 PM

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