Cheeryl Tan (a.k.a. JoBiChI~sAn ^^)
Currently 16. And VERY screwed up.
Libra
October 17th xD
Year of the Goat
Blood type B+ (tasty, because blood all around is...)
(Did I mention that I play with blood?)
Super-sensitive to the sun (vampire mah~)(never want to see the sun again...)
Die hard anime and manga fan! And dying for it...
Future Manga Artist.. I'll tell my stories to the world!
Obsession with... MUSHROOMS... <3
Choir!
Love science... All branches of it... But....
Love to sing
Love writing poems n songs
Love to draw
Loves the power of 'cheaminology' >_< Love writing LoOoOoOoOonnnggggg compos...
Love... A beautiful reality! <3
Where is the love?
Morbid and emo-ing... Again.
Wonders about Life
Counsellor! But can't even help myself...
Dreams of making own universes... While attempting to withdraw into my own...
Contorted in millions of philosophies
Japanese bands ROCK!

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YAY!

Choir was real fun today!

Haha...

Haven't been blogging for some time... Today managed to pull out a teensy weensy inch of my precious time to blog xD But seriously who cares? No one ever really visits my blog anyway... So does it matter?

Today the sec 1's came in for a choir orientation. There were about 7 guys who were shortlisted! Oh joy... finally the choir has more guys.. And I was joking about the results of not having enough guys... Not enough testoterone levels... den our gals will bcum les... =P

We played "Whacko" as an ice-breaking game. At first, mainly it was the boys (new ones) doing the name domination. After awhile, other people were thrown into the game. I personally got whacked 3 times... Clarence a.k.a. 'Cai Ling' got whacked 4 times (hehe I whacked him too) So both of us had to do forfeits: Clarence sung one of Jay Chou's songs... Dun rmb e title eheheh... Then I was made to sing the 1st part of "Reason" which thank heavens i didnt go off-key...
Then we ate some bread which was provided for the choir. After that, the seniors and freshmen took separate trainings (sad... mei mei!!!) The singing standards today was pretty bad... But towards the end saw a better quality... I hope this only happens for today... If not Ms. Yee will gut us all... Grraaahhh!!!

Sec 4 days are getting stressful by the moment... Workload is increasing at an exponential rate... I think. Tests piling, matters to be resolved... A mangled wreck I am...

Well, I guess I've gotta cope. For the vision I have ahead of me I've gotta work hard.

Oh. My dad asked if I wanted to write my short stories in my blog. But there's the possibility some idiot out there in the huge world of cyberspace who might copy my work n publish it... Ouch. So you people out there... Do ya want me to write?

AAAAHHH!!!

After sooo long not using html, my skills have gone seriously haywire...

The last time i touched html was when i played Neopets (and it wasnt very good either... people hu hav nth bettr 2 do can go 2 neopets n check for user yin387)
I really need help mann... Lol... Somehow i just dont like the way my blog has turned out. Until now. I need 2 noe what codes do what, how to put certain stuff up... blahblahblah... ARGH!

To think that I'm still stuck with a irritating sore throat and i'm still bothered by such trivial matters... *sigh*

But soon, I wont have much time to touch my blog. I'm certain.

So I guess I should worry about small things when I can. Coz soon, bigger things'll be coming. And will Blur Queen here be able to handle 'em all? Don't think so. So I gotta train up first =P

Lol...

Gotta go clean up my table. That's another little thing I gotta worry about...

Today was sooo fun!!!

Flag day for the Darul Ihsan Orphanage... *refers to sticker on bag* It's a Muslim organisation... blahblahblah...

We started out at Jurong Library, and then me, Kim hock, Cheryl n Jerald went on to Tiong Bahru area to get people. At first, it was pretty cool (Some saw us a few metres off and already started searching their wallets!) I was kind of reluctant to ask for donations... But going on to Chinatown area, we saw some RV peeps, and the people there were all in a rush so we didnt get alot of donations. Around 10+ Kim hock left to meet with his senior (did I mention today was his birthday? Gave him a card ^^ ...Ya ok i noe im cheapskate ok...) Jerald was sooo damn lucky... Within the 1st hour he got a 10 dollar note...

Later on we took a ride down to Holland Road (wanted to go Vivo n c the stars but it was too far off n we didnt hav alot of time) Before that we had bought some drinks from 7-11 n since me n single 'e' couldnt finish we dumped it in her bottle. Holland was THE BEST! The people there were so nice. Mostly Caucasians (about 50%), but I can't say the locals arent nice! The people there were really nice. Some of them were families with their little kids (all so kAwAiI!!!) Then some of the expatriates gave real generous amounts (I got quite a fair share of $10 =P) The individuals on the run we didnt really approach. I expected to not even cover the bottom of the tin (Milo-tin sized! Liao!) But in the end we got almost half!

Going back was a chore. Taking the bus... So boring. Managed to view some brilliant examples of Singapore architecture though, so that kept me busy. I've got some ideas for my comic ^^

When we handed the can over, I WHOOPIED!!! Lol... Not that doing fundraising was bad, it was pretty fun, and wasnt what I expected. Well, I cant say i havent learnt anything... Neither can i really say i've learnt something. But the worse part was rushing over to my student's house to teach him phonics... 3 hrs late i think. Ouch. Horrid. Better and NEVER do it again... I've never been that late before!

Oh well. Back anyway n dry despite the rain. Sweaty n sticky instead. And I think i lost a few pounds =P

(Song changed to Gekkouka... Dunno y juz like it coz im emo-ing lol)

Added some crap to my blog again. Still can't think of how 2 make it better... It pales in comparision to my jiejie's blog... So nice wor. But I dun wan none of her girly stuff though haha.

Had 5 tests.. 4 or 5 I don't remember... For this week alone. Next week there's tests too. Sec 4 life is getting very hectic. I havent really handed up all of my ISPL's yet. Mamachan'll kill me mann...

Yesterday had a freakin bad sore throat + fever. I got scolded by Ms Yee several times coz i kept singing the wrong stuff... Like she says 'sing to blah' and i sing to blahblahblah... Extra stuff at the back. So embarrasing! Didnt sleep well either... Studying A. maths ytd was as good as not doing so... Nothing was going in...
Woke up bleary eyed with something dislodged in my throat. And what turned out after heavy snorting was glops of dark greenish phlegm with blood in it... EWWW! What a perfect way to start the day... Felt better though aft drinking some honey with lime (arigato Joeline! Lol... that's my maid's name!)
Was bleary for most part of today's morning... Bio questions all answered in fantastically wrong fashions... After recess (n ka jiao-ing the coconut head) I felt alot better. Fever's subsided. YAY! But throat still feels kinda itchy. Thank heavens my ulcer's recovering...

Being sick is no fun mann. I always get sick (usually FEVER) before Chinese New year. And then I cant eat the goodies coz my papa says so... But in the end I'll still sneak some ^^

Worse is that I virtually forgot everything on my list of to-do-things... Shucks...

To think that a few years back (until recently), I had always been a super slacker. When I was in lower sec I blew the tops off almost all my teachers (except Mr. Chia who taught art =P) Homework late late late... Files? Messy, things missing... Tests? Bo pien la dun study la, pass happy le... Now? AAAAHHHH HOMEWORK NT DONE!!! Muz do muz do!!! Files? When muz hand up ah? TEST? AAAAHHHH MUZ STUDY!!!!

Haha. Sometimes I don't believe myself either. And I've recently started to nag at my friends abt studies... AM I TURNING INTO A OLD HAG?!?! I mean, I already have white hair... Mayb its the process of growing up at work. Or mayb I'm juz super stressed. I mean, yesterday I slept the earliest in a long time: 10.40pm. Is THAT early? Not quite. But my poor body cant tahan one eh. I need 13hrs of sleep xD It's just... Not me... So i dont quite understand what I am doing now, or for that matter, who i am...

Kay den. Enough with the crap. Gotta go pangya now ^^

YaWn....

I am so freaking bored... Here are the lyrics + translation for "Canvas"... Enjoy!


Canvas (COOLON) -- Eureka Seven

kawaranai mainichi kara nukedashitakute hitori arukidashita
kono te ni tsukanda chizu wo hirogereba tadoritsukeruto omottanda
tada ga mushara ni natte susumu koto dake ni torawarete
ashimoto mo mienakunatte tsumazuite asphalt ni korogatte
sora wo miagete hitomi wo tojitefukanda minna no egao ni kizukasaretayo

furikaeru to itsumo kawaranai basho ga aru kara
donna gyakkyou mo fuan mo koete yukeru
hateshinai michi naru michi e to fumidaseru

dakedo kanchigai hitori de tsuyoku nattatte kigashite ita
jibun no yowasa mitsuke kasumu ikute demo hikari sashite mina no kao wo ukaberu
senaka osu koe ga atte koso koete yuku koto ga dekitanda ne
yatto wakatta toki kara wa yabure kansha no kimochi mo mebae

itsumo itsumo tsukkoshitte sou yatte susumu my way
katte datte muri ni iji ni natte
koetai kabe tobikoeru hane hoshikattanda tsuyoku naru tame
tachiagatte mae e mae e taoretatte nando dattedatte dare nimo aru hazu "kaereru basho"
itsumo itsumo datte sou yori sou kizuna
Hands in the air todoku eeru mune ni saki e

furikaeru to itsumo kawaranai basho ga aru kara
donna gyakkyou mo fuan mo koete yukeru
hateshinai michi naru michi e to fumidaseru

owaranai tabi no tochuu de tachi tomatte
kizukasareta kakegae no nai mono
mune no honou afuredasu hodo
dokomademo ikeru hazu sa
hito wo mamoreru tsuyosa itsuka kono te ni

furikaeru to itsumo kawaranai basho ga aru kara
donna gyakkyou mo fuan mo koete yukeru
hateshinai michi naru michi e to fumidaseru

furikaeru to itsumo kawaranai basho ga aru kara
donna gyakkyou mo fuan mo koete yukeru
hateshinai michi naru michi e to fumidaseru

furikaeru to itsumo kawaranai basho ga aru kara
donna gyakkyou mo fuan mo koete yukeru
hateshinai michi naru michi e to fumidaseru

El Translation:

From these never changing days, I wanted to escape, so I stepped out on my own.
If I spread this map in my hands, I thought I could struggle to somewhere
But I just become vexed, and unable to progress
I became unable to see my steps, and stumbled on the asphalt, rolling
I look up at the sky with my eyes closed
I was hurt by the everyone’s empty smiles

Always when I look back, there’s a never-changing place
So I can overcome whatever adversity and unease
And I’ll be able to step out into the never-ending unknown road

But I misunderstood, I thought I became strong alone
I realised my own weakness and got confused but light shone and I saw everyone’s faces
Since there’s a voice that pushes me, for sure I have now passed through
Finally when I understood and broke my shell apart, feelings of gratitude sprout

Always I rush and do it my way
Selfishly, unreasonably and stubbornly
The wall I want to overcome, the wings to fly over, for the strength I desired
I stand up and move forward, no matter how many times I fall
Cos everyone should have a place to return to
A bond that can be relied on always
Hands in the air let out a yell and stick your chest out

Whenever I look back, there’s a never-changing place
I can overcome whatever adversity and unease
And I’ll be able to step out into the never-ending unknown road

On the never-ending journey, I stopped
The wounded irreplaceable things
The flame in my heart bursts forth
I probably could go anywhere and everywhere
The power to protect people, someday I’ll have

Always when I look back, there’s a never-changing place
I can overcome whatever adversity and unease
And I’ll be able to step out into the never-ending unknown road

Always when I look back, there’s a never-changing place
I can overcome whatever adversity and unease
And I’ll be able to step out into the never-ending unknown road

Always when I look back, there’s a never-changing place
I can overcome whatever adversity and unease
And I’ll be able to step out into the never-ending unknown road

(something wrong wif e words in EL trans... komen komen)

Today I was w8in 4 e bus at e bus stop... Saw a couple from our school kissing n hugging in public. The general reaction? Pretend not to notice, but in true reality my brain was screaming: "Ewww!!! How in the Wurld can they do that??? Wad abt those innocent lil kiddies from PEPS?" Lolz...

But something deep down inside awoke. A stirring devil within my insides... Seriously. It's almost a year since I've broke up wif my ex. How in the bbblllloooooodddyyyy hell can I still think abt him? Not exactly thinking abt him. But somehow its the memories we've had together...

O accursed one, why do you torment me with your being? I thought by doing this things would be better. I thought the bond between us would break and vanish. But yet you still torment me with memories of you... I have completely no idea how's he doing now. Never heard from him. Neither, i think, will he hear from me...

But after breaking up, somehow I still yearn for someone (i can keep dreaming) to hold me in his arms, whisper into my ear that he loves me...

AAAAHHHHHH SOMETHING IS WRONG WITH ME!!!!

But reality is here to stay. Aint plannin no relationships until aft the big O's. Even then, I dont think it's a good idea. I once saw a friend's personal message on Messenger... "Love is an obstacle that stops us from achieving our goals" (smth liddat lah) I totally agree with him. Love? Makes us sick in the head. Love? Makes us go dizzy with silly passion. Love? Could possibly go unrequited and futile. And even if it seems it might go somewhere, love can as easily turn to hate. And there would be love no more...

Love? Bah. Youngmin is partially right. It does exist, but how long does it last? How will you know if it's really love? What can it do to a person? How can it benefit us? How will you know if the other person loves you the same way? How'd you know if it isnt lust?

Besides... I don't need no love (as in heterosexual type?) You dont need it to survive. I will go all out to fulfil my ambitions and goals. If love will impede me, it has to be relinquished. It has to go. Love? Who needs it.

Haiz... Me the incredible "love expert" (emphasis on the inverted commas) is stumped by her own problem. Somehow, when one can solve others' problems, when it occurs to you yourself or someone close 2 you (like family), you'll be stupefied. Yeah.

Oh well! Enough on this already. Got lotsa homework to do so I'd better get a move on, rather than talk crap in my blog...

So tired...

Choir was really much better than the last time round... At least there were peeps listening to me this time round. I'm on highhhh~!!!! Hahaz...

But it's a great feeling really, when you've set your mind to do something n there r ppl supportin u... N i love it! Whooo babe!

Haha. Too tired n rushed to type anything else. Uploaded a song onto my blog... Canvas! My all time fav song. It's a sad song, but it tells us the importance of picking urself up n trying again... No matter how hard n even if no one is there for you.

Oh yes... The lyrics I put below is e chorus for Canvas... And this song's from a gr8 line of other songs from the anime Eureka Seven ^^

That's all peeps! I've got plenty of other things to do... Before my mum murders me...

Ciao~!

Ahhh finally I'm done with my blog... Before my dad eats me up *urph*

Hmm... Still doesnt look very personal... Should ask people how 2 upload songs... Put pictures n such. I lazy 2 do em now... N i only link to so few people! So boring!!!

Today went out n eat until wan 2 vomit. All my sis' fault, dun wan 2 eat her share...

O well, enough for now!

ZzZzzz....

yes yes yes... Perpetually under construction...
Finally I am actually bothered to do something about this dumb thing!

My prev blog was on Msn Space if you guys didnt know... http://jobichipynklolly.spaces.live.com/

Well, most is up i guess... Blog skin, check. Tag board, check. Profile... Still undone... All that's left is some personalising of my blog. And that's the posts xD

Haiz.... Not bothered to write any more. Gotta work on it!

Cheers~